Friday, December 31, 2010

2010 In Review

To all of my loyal blog followers, both "official" & unofficial..thank you. I appreciate your kind comments, no matter how rare or frequent you make them. I have been told many times by people who aren't even listed as "followers" that they love reading my blog. This motivates me to keep writing more than you'll even know. This blog has helped me through my UC flareup (2009), pregnancy, and of course Kinsley Anne's NICU ride & continued health concerns. It not only helps me keep family & friends in the loop, but allows me to connect with new friends! I am so very grateful for the new blessings & challenges that 2010 brought us and look forward to 2011 with hope for a new, healthy, & lively year.

Here is Our 2010 in Review...
  • We saw two pink lines. We found out it was a little girl. We named her Kinsley Anne. We thought she may have a club foot. We went to high risk OB & were told our little darling was perfect. We experienced a very unexpected, long, drawn out labor process, ultimately resulting in a beautiful little girl almost 5 weeks premature. We found out that our sweet little girl would be spending some time in the NICU. We rode the NICU roller coaster for 5 long days, finding out along the way that Kinsley Anne's left lung was very underdeveloped. We continue with doctor's appointments & are continually amazed at Kinsley Anne's strength & resiliance. We spent our first Thanksgiving & Christmas as a family of 3. We repeated her CT scan & wait for results...
  • I lost a very good high school friend, Nate Henn but heaven gained one heck of an angel!
  • It snowed on Christmas Day for the first time in SC in 47 years.
  • Kyle had appendicitis, requiring an emergency appendectomy. Turns out I was pregnant at the time & I'm sure 23hrs of no sleep didn't help my exhaustion. Oh well, anything for my Kyle!!
  • Bowen went to his first hunt test & passed with a Prize 1, 110. (Highest score is a prize 1, 112)!! We were and continue to be very proud of him. He has been a great big brother to Kinsley & his biological little sister Avery.
  • We gained another four legged child, Avery. She is a puppy out of the same parents that Bowen is from. They are 1.5 yrs apart & have turned out to be best buds although polar opposites. Avery is also good with Kinsley. She loves to shower her with kisses at any given opportunity.
  • We have spent a good bit of time with my family this year which is always wonderful! Because of my pregnancy, I got to see my parents in July for my DE baby shower, July/August for my parents vacation, August for a cousin's bar mitzvah, October for Kinsley Anne's birth, November for Thanksgiving, & December for Christmas. I got to see my sister a lot as well!!
I will post tomorrow about Kinsley Anne's CT scan yesterday. It was quite an eventful process but ultimately, things worked out the way I believe they were meant to. Keep us in your prayers as we hope to find out the results on Monday.

Until Next YEAR...
Love, Jen

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Happy Holidays

Happy Holidays from our family to yours!

If you have an extra prayer left to say for our family, we would greatly appreciate you praying about Kinsley Anne's CT scan tomorrow. She is scheduled to be at the hospital at 9:30am. Our specific requests are:

{1} That the NPO hours would go smoothly. Kinsley Anne cannot eat after 5am other than Pedialyte until 9am. She gets very ticked off when she's hungry, so I hope that for some reason, she feels satisfied.
{2} That we could do this test without sedation. It is ordered with sedation, but the sedation nurse called me & told me that we would try it first without. She would have to lay perfectly still for <5>
{3} That her left lung would have grown substantially in the last 10 weeks.
{4} That the little air pockets vs. cysts would be GONE! Howeverrrr, if they are still there, please pray that it would be more clear as to what those little things are.

Thank you so much. This means a lot to our family!!

Until Next Time...
Love, Jen

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Top 2 Tuesday: New Years Resolutions

Welcome back to this week's edition of Top 2 Tuesday! I have so much fun playing & I hope you'll hop over to Taylor's blog (The Undomestic Momma) and join in with us. This week's topic is:

Top 2 New Years Resolutions
{1} Tune into my creative side - I have enjoyed making bows for Kinsley Anne & I hope to continue to do that & maybe even pick up a few other new skills. I also want to use my brand new camera to capture the events of my life. I love photography, took several classes in high school, knew how to manually use a camera & develop my own film, etc. I don't care about the developing part, but I am going to find a couple of hours to re-learn the techniques that I once knew & put them to good use. Sorry Kinsley Anne, you'll be my subject for a long time to come..just get used to it!

{2} Gain more self confidence. I am really hard on myself since I am still hovering ever so slightly above my pre-pregnancy weight. The first chunk of weight came off super easily & the last 5 or so pounds are proving incredibly difficult. I know that I am breastfeeding & that my chest is a little heavier than normal, for obvious reasons, but I don't think I give myself enough credit. I am a busy, tired, working new mom that barely has enough time to breathe, let alone be good about an exercise routine. However, I will to find something fun at home that I can do to work out. I don't care if it's dance to a wii game, walk, some p90x activity, or what, but I have to do it for my own morale. I don't have to have the same body that I once had, but I am going to get this one fit & feel good about it.. And by summer, I will be wearing bikinis again. I am bound & determined.
If anyone has ideas on fun & effective things to do to tone back up as a new mom, PLEASE leave me a comment!!! I value your thoughts/helpful hints!

{runner up} stop cursing altogether again. I used to be realllly good about holding them in. somehow they have started slipping again & with Kinsley Anne now here, it's time to put a stop to them. once and for all!

Until Next Time..
Love, Jen

Monday, December 27, 2010

Our Christmas 2010

I apologize in advance for the length of this post. I found a few moments of peace & figured I better take advantage of it while it lasts!!
This year's Christmas started Wednesday when we celebrated Christmas with Kyle's brother, Ryan and his fiance Ashley (one of my bridesmaids when I got married). They were going up to PA to be with her family for Christmas so we needed to celebrate a little early. We enjoyed Low Country Boil & exchanged gifts. I got a gorgeous new bead for my bracelet (a cross, anchor, and seen below.."Faith, Hope, & Charity" bead) & an awesome brown Carhart vest. What's funny is that last weekend, I had tried this exact vest on with Kyle and said "not that I need it, but it's a great gift idea for the future because I really like it." Little did I know that Ryan had already bought it at Cabela's for me! :) Thanks Rhino and Ash!Then my parents arrived in town on Thursday last week. It is so good to have them around & see them spending time with Kinsley Anne. Thursday evening after getting off of work, we went to Hollywild to see Christmas lights & feed some animals. You drive in and first drive through millions of lights. Then, you enter the "safari" area where you buy food & roll down your windows. Herds of deer, holstein cows, zebras, "za-donkeys," and steer roam around eating from your hands. Then, there is a part where you can park & get out. There you can enjoy bonfires, hot cocoa, Santa, baby goats, llamas, alpacas, and lots of other animals. Kinsley was all bundled up to stay warm and she even had her picture taken with Santa!! We all had a great time but were exhausted when the night was done.

Friday, my office was closed so we all got to hang out & enjoy the day together. That evening, we went to Kyle's maternal grandmother's house (Myma) and enjoyed Christmas festivities with about 40 family members. Kyle's mom is 1 of 6, so it's a big & fun family. The kids had drawn names & exchanged gifts first. Kinsley Anne got a really pretty black fleece pea coat with zebra trim and a matching hat. Then, the Chinese auction began amongst the adults. Everyone brought a gift, either for a female or male. Numbers were given out to everyone & the person with #1 picked a gift and opened it. The person with #2 could either pick #1's gift or get a new gift. A gift could only be traded 3 times & then it was "retired" and safe with whoever was holding it at that time. It was really fun. I took home a really pretty glass heart necklace and Kyle brought home reindeer antlers & a nose for my car!

Saturday morning after Santa had come, we opened stockings at our house with my parents. Kinsley got new pink & camo cowboy boots (yes..a stocking stuffer because her feet are so tiny haha). After stockings, we went over to Kyle's parents & exchanged gifts with everyone. I was blown away with how many amazing gifts I got. We are one blessed family. The biggest gift for me was my BRAND NEW CAMERA!!!! Kyle bought me a Nikon D3100 with an extra (bigger) lens. I had an absolute ball taking pictures the rest of the day. Poor Kinsley's first words are going to be "mom, stop" I'm certain. I also got an express Keratin treatment that I'm having done this Wednesday afternoon. My parents bought us a new Hoover!!!!! I am beyond excited about the fact that we have a nice, high quality vacuum that I would never want to buy for myself. My parents also bought my more Willow Tree Nativity figurines for my happy about them!

Kyle & Kinsley Anne got tons of great gifts as well. Kinsley Anne got more shoes, socks, clothes, books, ornaments, and her very first pocket knife from Daddy! Kyle's dad has always bought his three kids (all boys) a Case pocket knife every year for Christmas. Kyle wants to continue that tradition with his kids. Kinsley will get the same style pocket knife every year, in every possible color and edition that it comes in! Kyle got new work boots, a Dewalt radio, gun cleaning kit, hair trimmer, Decision Points (by George Bush), and lots of other goodies.

After gift exchanging Saturday morning, we had a yummy breakfast (Strata and Breakfast Casserole, biscuits, and gravy). Then, we rested and enjoyed the goodies we had opened up earlier. I read through the basics of my camera and got to work snapping pictures. Saturday afternoon, we went to Kyle's paternal grandparents, where we ate some more. It was quite yummy & then it was onto the much-anticipated scavenger hunt. Kyle's grandmom (Nene) thinks all year about where she can hide $100 bills. There is 1 hidden for each of the grandkids & this year the adults even had theirs hidden. The "kids" are in 1 room & the adults were in another. Mine was rolled up & taped inside of a little decorative broomstick that was hanging on the wall. It took us about 25 minutes to find all of the hidden money...well done Nene! We're already looking forward to next year's hunt!

That night, the snow started falling & it became the first white Christmas in 47 was stunning. We got to just relax by the fire & watch it fall. Quite peaceful, if you ask me!

Christmas is by no means all about the gifts but we are soo blessed to be able to exchange a few with each other. Looking around at all of our "stuff" was a little overwhelming this year. Kyle said on Christmas morning "There are a lot of happy little kids right now!" and I couldn't help but respond "and some that didn't get to experience Santa." I pray that everyone felt the warmth of family & friends this past weekend and maybe even had a few pretty packages to open.

This morning on my way to work, a Christian radio station was having people call in to say "My Christmas was wonderful this year because...." I couldn't help but call to say "My Christmas was wonderful this year because it was my first one as a mom!!" The man excitedly told me congratulations & it put a smile on my face all morning.

Pictures are coming soon, as soon as I find a quiet moment to upload them. So...what was your favorite part of Christmas this year?

Until Next Time...
Love, Jen

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Top 2 Tuesday: Favorite Christmas Memories

Welcome to another edition of Top 2 Tuesday, hosted by Taylor @ The Undomestic Momma! It provides me much entertainment to look through everyone's thoughts on each week's topics & I hope it provides you smiles as well!
If you're new here, HEY! I hope you'll sit back, relax, and get to know my family!

This week's topic is:

Top 2 Favorite Christmas Memories!

{1} Christmas Day with The Loughlin Family (my mom's side). After celebrating Christmas morning with my parents/sister/neighbors (they were like grandparents to us!), we would hop in the car & head up to Nanny & Pop Pop's house. It was so fun to get the aunts, uncles, & cousins together. This picture below doesn't include everyone who used to gather, but it does include my Great Nanny & Pop Pop (who have both been celebrating Christmas in Heaven for a few years now), so it is a great one!!

{2} Christmas Eve. My mom, dad, sister, & sometimes Nanny would go over to my neighbor's house (The Gibbs) on Christmas Eve & Mrs. Gibbs is quite an exquisite chef. She used to make us homemade soup & muffins as our Christmas Eve supper. She made everyone except me vegetable soup from scratch & she would make me crab bisque. She made all sorts of muffins, but my personal fave was a zucchini muffin of hers. They also always gave my sister & I 1 gift to open at their house, which was always an ornament for our tree. Then, we would head home & sit by a fire or watch a movie (typically A Christmas Story) until it was time to head to Cathedral Church of St. John for the midnight Christmas Eve service. My favorite part of the service is always when they light candles, turn off the lights, and sing Silent Night.

..of course, I also LOVED Christmas morning, running downstairs to see the tree & wrapped packages & a few years ago, I'm sure I may have listed that as one of my top 2! But, I seem to cherish family more & more these days. Perhaps it's because most of my family lives a plane ride away? BUT, I get to see my mom & dad THIS Thursday & I couldn't be happier. They are coming down from DE to spend Christmas with Kinsley Anne & I am thrilled.
I love, love, love all of my family.

I hope that you all have been able to spend time together with your family this Christmas season & find time to really soak in all of your favorite memories...and even create a few new ones!

Also, please be praying for my sweet girl's 2 month appointment today! I think we are dealing with some reflux & I hope that we can get this sorted out. She has been very congested & she gurgles in her throat a lot too. I hope that we can get on medicine & avoid her aspirating anything. The last thing we need is for her to get pneumonia!!!!! Of course she is getting her shots today too & that will not be easy to watch. Thanks in advance for thinking of us!

Until Next Time..
Love, Jen

Saturday, December 18, 2010

2 Month Birthday!

Today is Kinsley Anne's 2 month birthday!! She weighs approximately 10lbs & is such a joy in our lives. She is learning to smile (& does most of it in the morning when she's wide awake), talks a little (a lot of "ahhs"), & has pretty good head strength.

Yesterday, I got up & went to work to find out I had NO patients scheduled. Not good financially, but great for my family because I got to come home earlier than normal (after fighting with Medicaid and working on some patient phone calls) & Kyle, Kinsley Anne, and I went out to eat. We also had a Sunday School party where we all went to eat at Caro-Mi in Tryon, NC & then came back to our "teacher's" house to do a Chinese auction gift exchange & of course we had dessert.
Daddy (Kyle) & Kinsley Anne
Mama & Kinsley Anne
..please note her adorable pink baby Uggs!

Today (on her birthday), we were wayyy lazy! Kinsley slept until 630am, ate, slept until 9, ate, then we all cuddled in bed until 11:30! It was wonderful & just what we all needed. We then ate lunch & got a few more Christmas pictures taken of Kinsley Anne (will post soon). We came home, ate some delicious chicken pot pie, straightened up, and put on Charlie St. Cloud (which is currently finishing up)...very good movie & I even got some gift wrapping done while watching!!

Kinsley Anne has her 2 month checkup & will get her 1st round of shots on Tuesday. Pray for her...and of course, her mommy!!!! I'm pretty sure it will hurt me more to watch than it will hurt her! More updates to come soon. I hope ya'll are having a wonderful weekend!

Until Next Time..
Love, Jen

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Top 2 Tuesday

Hey!! It's Tuesday again. For all of you that see my blog week-to-week, you know what that means...It's time again for Top 2 Tuesday, hosted by Taylor @ The Undomestic Momma!

This Weeks Topic is: Top 2 Favorite Games (Board, Video, Card, etc)

{1} Pinochle. This is a card game that my family played all of the time! We used to play on vacation, at home, wherever! It was perfect since we are a family of 4 & all you need is a deck of cards. It provided endless hours of laughs & memories.

{2} Wii Mario Kart. I got Wii for Christmas from Kyle last year & Kyle's brother, Clay and I have played for hours & hours. We typically pull our love seat recliner in front of the TV so that we can play in style!

So, I have to ask...has anyone played any good Wii Karaoke games? How about XBox 360 Kinect?

Until Next Time..
Love, Jen

Monday, December 13, 2010

Kinsley Anne @ 8 weeks..

Kinsley Anne is 8 weeks old today.
Kinsley, here is what you have been doing this month:

-You are wearing size 1 diapers and 0-3 month clothing. Your 3 month footed sleepers are still slightly too big & you manage to pull your foot up out of the footed part & wedge both feet in one leg hole. Ouch!

-You got weighed Friday and were 9#10.5oz!!

-You are still getting exclusively breastmilk, but get it through a bottle while I'm at work & also at nighttime. I usually only breastfeed you 1-2 feedings between work & bed & still love that time together with you.

-You sleep in the pack 'n' play just outside our room. Mama & Daddy were hearing all of your little moans, groans, and squeaks and decided we weren't getting very good sleep because of it. Now, we only hear you when you cry. You have steadily been sleeping 5-6hr stretches at night now. If we put you down at 11, you sleep til 5am. If we put you down at midnight, you sleep until 6am. We really hope we can squeeze out another hour soon!!

-Your nighttime routine goes like this: play/read/watch TV with mama & daddy, start to get fussy, mama gets in the shower & washes, daddy brings you to the shower & you get into the shower with mama. Wash & relax in the shower. Get out, dry off, eat a bottle (usually 6+oz), get sleepy, get put in your swaddle blanket, get put down in the pack n play.

-You LOVE baths & showers!!!! It doesn't matter if the water splashes your face or not. You could be screaming your little head off & when that warm water hits you, you just get wide-eyed and quiet. I was a little nervous about washing you in the shower the 1st time but it is way faster for me to do it this way & you love it.

-You are so alert now! You are not the best napper in the world. You usually get at least one good nap each day, but during the rest of your naps you still make little noises & move around a bit.

-When you're awake, you really work to pick your head up & look at who's holding you.

-You have started tracking people's movement a little bit. Daddy was calling your name in front of you last night & when he moved back and forth from one side of you to the other, you followed him! I think that made him (and me!) very happy!!!

-You are a very good baby. You typically don't cry unless you are hungry or hurting. You still have some bouts of gas but in the last week, it has gotten a little better. We give you infant gas drops as needed & it seems to work well. When we put the medicine in your mouth, you evidently think it tastes great because you stop crying and smack your lips together.

-The dogs still adore you. As soon as they come in the house, they have to go find you. They sniff the swing, the bouncy, the car seat, etc until they find where you are. They, like us though, have learned to sleep through most of your noises.

-You have lots of hair in the back of your head and your hair is growing in slowly but surely everywhere else. It seems like it will be thick and blonde. It already even has a little curl to it. The PA that saw you on Friday said that you have a "beautiful moo-lay" (aka mullet). We love you & your beautiful mullet.

-You like your bouncy seat & sometimes this helps if your belly is hurting you. You like your swing for naps.

-You are still mesmerized by bright lights & fans.

-You are a strong little girl. Your grip is quite tight.

-You love riding in the car but have only had to use that tactic once for when you weren't feeling well.

-I learned a new kind of hurt on Friday when you weren't feeling well. I felt hopeless & cried on the way to the pediatrician's office while you cried because there was nothing I could do. I know you are bound to get sick from time-to-time but I don't like it and hope that you are a very healthy little girl so that your mama doesn't have to feel broken hearted often.

-You're only supposed to be 2.5 weeks old but are thankful for the amazing 8 weeks you have been in our lives.

-You have taught me so much in these 8 very short weeks. You have taught me a love I never knew possible. You have shown me pure joy & true happiness. I wish only the best things for you - that you may grow up to be a strong, healthy, happy, & loving young lady. But in the meantime, I am going to enjoy every single moment of being able to hold your 9lb body, provide for your needs, & shower you with unending love & affection. We love you always & forever, to the moon & back.

Sunday, December 12, 2010

weekend recap

Is it the work week already???

Friday, I got a phone call from Kyle saying that Kinsley Anne was acting like "a demon." She wouldn't stop crying for anything & he was getting her in the car to drive. Where? Anywhere. He didn't know what else to do..she was dry, she was fed, she had been given gas drops, and she was still crying. So, as soon as I got done seeing my patients, I let him know that I was on my way to help. I got home as he was pulling back into the driveway and as soon as he brought her in the house, she was wailing. Kyle said that she would get quiet when he was driving, but as soon as the car came to a stop at a red light, she freaked out again. I picked her up, swaddled her, and cuddled her close to me, and temporarily she calmed down. She slept for about an hour, woke up, & she nursed. After she ate, she again, starting crying inconsolably. I walked around, put her in the swing, put her in the bouncy, tried her in different positions while I held her..but nothing was working. I gave her gas drops again & that didn't do the trick. So at 3:55pm, I decided to call the pediatrician before they closed. I got an appointment at 4:40pm (their last slot for Friday) and off we went. On my way, I called her pulmonologist & asked what I needed to be looking for since she seemed like she was in pain. He said to have them hook her up to an O2 saturation monitor & listen to her breath sounds. If both were good, he didn't think it was pulm related. If one was abnormal, he told me to request a Chest XRay. She cried the entire visit and the doctor said she had "beautiful ears" (aka no ear infections), no ulcers or redness in her mouth/throat, her belly felt soft, she had very mild congestion in her nose, but nothing else. Because of her lung "anomaly" and how incredibly upset she was, she asked if we minded getting labs done to insure that there was no underlying bacterial infection going on. Of course we didn't mind since we wanted to figure out what was going on. However, because it was past 5 at this point, the lab was closed at the office. So, we had to go to the hospital. I drove her over there & registered her as an outpatient. The computers were down and since she had never in the hospital as anything other than "baby girl settle," it was really fun trying to figure out how to get her registered. The lab techs were really nice (& good) and stuck her tiny little foot. She's a good bleeder, so we got plenty of blood on the first stick. We then hung out in the hospital (as instructed by the pediatrician) for results in case we needed to head to the peds ER for further testing. About an hour later, the doctor called & basically said that her white blood cell count was slightly low (possibly viral infection) but otherwise, things looked good. So, home we went. That night, she stopped crying but didn't eat much. She ate 2 ounces at 7pm, 1 ounce at midnight, nursed twice the next morning - each for only about 5 minutes, and then went until 6pm without eating anything else. The doctor called to check on her Saturday morning and told me to offer her breast/bottle more frequently since she wasn't wanting to eat well. She cried off & on and honestly had me really concerned because her urine output started to decrease, but after she ate Saturday evening, things started turning around. She had started to look somewhat pale & her eyes were just pitifully exhausted looking. She ate very well Saturday night and today, we have a new baby. She is SO content, looking around, picking her head up, cooing a little, etc. Our Kinsley Anne is back!! She's making her mama and daddy very happy. Her pees & poops are back to normal and I couldn't be happier. I think we forgot how lucky we are to have a good baby but we now have realized that. She normally is only fussy when she is hungry or has gas. Whatever little bug she had on Friday really did a number on her.

I also have a little bit of the crud which stinks. I have some congestion & cough but am not feeling too terrible. Hopefully we can avoid her getting any of my "stuff." I wash my hands about a bazillion times/day but I am going to have to be super careful about changing clothes when I get home before holding her, etc.

Saturday, Kinsley stayed with Kyle's all afternoon/evening so that Kyle and I could run to the mall & we also had a wedding to go to. Cara, a nursing assistant at work got married & she was a beautiful bride!! We are all so happy for her & hope that they have a wonderful and safe honeymoon in Mexico. I forgot my camera, so of course, I have no pictures to post.

Today was basically a catch-up day for sleep. We didn't actually get out of bed (other than to tend to KA intermittently) until after noon. Then, we put a Lifetime Christmas movie on & Kinsley Anne and I fell back asleep. Finally, I got up and moving and took KA to Target with me to do some Christmas stocking shopping & to get more breast milk storage bottles. Kyle made pecan pie & chocolate oatmeal cookies and then we hung out at his parents house tonight for a little while.

Tomorrow, our sweet girl is 8 weeks old!!! A post on that soon.

How was your weekend? I hope that it wasn't as eventful as mine!

Until Next Time..
Love, Jen

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Guess Who?!

My sweet punkin' is featured on Tammy's Funky Flowers' Wordless Wednesday post today!!!
Go check her out...I must say (although slightly biased) that she is probably the cutest darn flower that you'll ever set your eyes on!!!

Until Next Time..
Love, Jen

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Top 2 Tuesday

I think I will forever be amazed at how fast time flies now that I am a mom. But without further ado, since it's already Tuesday again (and Tuesday is almost over), it's time again for Top 2 Tuesday!! Taylor, over at The Undomestic Momma, hosts Top 2 Tuesday each week & this week's topic is:

Top 2 Favorite Christmas Ornaments

{1} Cliche it is, but my new favorite ornament is anything pertaining to Kinsley Anne's very first Christmas. Just yesterday, a nurse at work gave me the below Precious Moments ornament. I also got her a silver spoon with little pink rhinestones that says "baby's first Christmas." My goal is to get her a meaningful ornament each year so that one day she will be able to fill a Christmas tree full of memories from her mama.

{2} I don't have a picture of this ornament, but it's a red, handpainted ornament that says "Longwood Gardens" on one side & on the other side has a beautiful picture of the gardens at Christmas. This place will always have special meaning as it is where Kyle proposed to me. I grew up close to Longwood Gardens & it is quite a spectacular place, especially at Christmas!! Below is a picture of Kyle and I the night that he proposed!

Other things on my mind:
a} i love "The Sing Off!" I actually love almost all a capella groups, so that show is basically heaven to me.
b} being a working mom is tough stuff! i'm exhausted. 6am is rough.
c} i love that Kyle is handling the Mr. Mom role like a pro. It has really allowed me to focus on getting back in the swing of things at work without worrying about my sweet baby girl so much.
d} i can't wait for my parents to come back! I know they miss Kinsley & I miss them!
e} where did 18 degrees come from? wasn't it 70 less than 2 weeks ago?
f} i should be in bed right now. goodnight.

Until Next Time..
Love, Jen

Monday, December 6, 2010

A New Adventure Begins..

So, today a new adventure began. I became a working mama. Kinsley Anne, luckily, is staying at home for another month. Kyle has the ability to be home for 2 weeks and then between his family & my family, they will keep her the 2 weeks after that. THEN she will begin the daycare experience. I am pleased that she will have her 2 month vaccines before going to daycare. I am praying, praying, praying that we can avoid the dreadful RSV.

My emotions were very mixed about the anticipation of this day...terrified to leave my sweet baby, excited for routine, scared that she'd miss me & my voice, happy that she could spend time with daddy, nervous that I'll miss something, and truly horrified at the possible germs that I could potentially bring home to her from the office/hospital. All of the above are normal, I'm sure. Last night, however, the terrified/sad feeling overwhelmed me for about 30 minutes. I got her ready for bed, fed her, and laid her in my arms. I didn't want to put her down. I didn't want to stop staring at her. I didn't want to say goodnight. I didn't want that kiss to be my last kiss for the night. So I just cried for 30 minutes while looking at her. Kyle said "what's wrong? Oh, that was stupid, I shouldn't have asked that." He was right. I knew I was going to have a "moment." I'm sure it was no surprise to him either. But he just put his arms around me and the 3 of us laid together for a little while & I soon felt better. He's great with her. I knew he would do fine at home...and I was right.

Today went smoothly. I got up, pumped, showered, got dressed (in clothes that I had already laid out), cleaned bottles, packed all of my pumping stuff, packed some chicken salad and Wheat Thins for lunch, said goodbye to my sweet & sleeping husband, kissed my baby girl {gently I might that I that wouldn't wake her}, and off I went..I was greeted in the driveway by waves & honking horns from my brother in law (who lives 2 doors down) & soon to be sister as they drove past on their way to work. That made me smile. I listened to my Selah CD on the way to work & it kept me feeling at peace. I called my mom to tell her that I made it out of the house without a breakdown. I saw my patients (all of which showed up. shocker, considering they've been waiting almost 2 months to be able to see me), did a little e-mail and snail mail catch-up, and headed back home. I got home a little early today but it was nice to just ease back into the routine. Everyone at work was amazing. They all greeted me with smiles, "welcome backs," & hugs. Everyone has been genuinely concerned about Kinsley Anne and today was no exception.

Now I get to love on my sweet girl all evening & I will love every single minute of it. One day, maybe I will get to stay home with my kiddo(s) but today was not the day...& I survived!

More bow pictures coming soon! I am starting to really love this bow-making process & I have gotten so many compliments when Kinsley Anne wears them which makes it all the more worth it!

Until Next Time..
Love, Jen

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Crafts? Yes Please.

My husband has been telling me "you should make those" every time I buy a bow. I finally decided to give it a whirl. I actually really enjoyed my craft time last night & successfully made 2 bows! I will continue on this weekend to see what else I can make. My goal is to make several different types & decide which I like doing best.

bow/flower #1:

bow/flower #2:

So, what do you think? What type do you like better? More to come soon!

Until Next Time..
Love, Jen