Tuesday, March 23, 2010

No, I'm Not Just Fat..

I guess it is time to announce in blog-world that I'M PREGNANT!!! This is a dream of mine & I couldn't be happier! But honestly, it doesn't seem very real yet (other than the crazy feelings I have). I am sure when I go for my first ultrasound this will change! We are due in November..I am thinking somewhere around the 14th.

So..rewind a little....This little story begins back in December when we met with the High Risk OB group with a genetic counselor. This visit was basically to help us make the decision of a) wait until I am off of my medicine (6-MP)..which may be never or b) continue on and be in the best health possible, even if that means taking a medication. We looked at lots of studies with the counselor, looked at family trees for other risks and did a lot of research on our own. Ultimately, we decided that the risk of a flare of my UC off of my medication was much higher than the risk of medication. NOW..for those ultra-conservatives out there - if you look up 6MP and pregnancy on Google, you may find scary things. But remember, this drug was designed as a leukemia medication. However, I am at a lower dose than cancer patients are. Therefore, side effects, and hopefully, long term effects are fewer. In addition, quite reasonably, as long as I stay in remission, there is a good chance I may be on this medication for 15+ years which would take me right on out of a safe childbearing age.

The next step, once we had made our decision to go forward with pregnancy despite medication, was to decide when we would first try. We talked and talked and prayed and prayed and one day, it was just "ok, we're ready." Well, I'm glad we were really ready, because the first month we tried, it worked!

So, we found out when I was 5 weeks and I am now 7.5 weeks. We have told my family, friends, & coworkers. This was very exciting news for us & despite some people saying you should wait until the end of the first trimester to share your good news, Kyle and I did not agree. God forbid something happen, I want all the support I can get.

My pregnancy has been confirmed by urine & blood tests and my first ultrasound is scheduled for 9am April 6th. Luckily, my mom & Nanny will be in town so they will get to come along!! I hope they will allow 3 extra people (Kyle plus the 2 of them) in the room with me. I realize that this is not a "fun" ultrasound, but I don't care. Ultimately, I want them to see Baby Settle's heart beating!!!

As for how I am feeling, I am actually feeling quite good. I have not had any vomiting {knock on wood} but I have had a good bit of dizziness and some mild nausea. The dizziness is not really relieved by drinking water, as I seem to be guzzling down several bottles at work without avail. However, I was better today because I made sure I sat down at work when possible and this seemed to help. I also feel like a crazy person, more often in the evening. Last night, for example, I went to the office and saw patients, went to the hospital to make rounds, ran by the grocery store to get food for the week, and went to my Relay for Life meeting. I got home at 8:15pm and by that time all I wanted to do was cry & sleep. Kyle kept saying, "do you want soup?" no. "do you want wings?" no. "do you want pizza bites?" no. "do you want yogurt?" no. "do you want Thin Mint girl scout cookies?" NO. "do you like saying no?" YES. So, with that, I ate a few bites of hash browns, half a bag of low-fat kettle corn, and went to bed. Basically, I've decided it is not a safe or good idea for me to go from noon to 8pm without eating because I become a grumpy, nauseous, dizzy, tearful person that even I do not like!! :)

I will be sure to post as I have updates or as I buy things either for the nursery, baby, etc. I have been going online "window" shopping like crazy picking out cribs I like, strollers I like, bedding I like, etc. Now if only I knew if it were a boy or girl. And yes, we will be finding out in June or July.

In non-baby news, I visited my sister, Katy, & brother-in-law, Stephen,in Atlanta this weekend. I got to meet my canine nephew, Tillman, as well! He is such a sweet boy (black lab puppy) but he has the sharpest little teeth in this world. Tillman, Katy, and Stephen are coming up for Easter and Bowen will have a ball with his new cousin!!!

...and now, for a letter to baby.

Baby Settle,
Your daddy & I are so very excited about you. This week, you are the size of my pinky's fingernail. I keep thinking that I'm not sure how you are already so powerful that you are making me feel crazy, but I guess you have a little help from my raging hormones. We can't wait to see your picture in 2 weeks. Keep safe in there!!

We love you so much already,
Mama & Daddy.

Love yall, Jen

Friday, March 5, 2010

East of Charlotte and Straight on 'til Morning...

Today, after work, we venture to Pinebluff, NC where our hotel will be for this weekend expedition. Bowen's test has quickly approached & Sunday is THE day! Kyle said last night that it will be some sort of miracle if Bowen passes since we have had a whirlwind of a year. We got bowen in April 2009 and in May, I was put in the hospital for 3 weeks so his training was put on halt. Then, Kyle started back in the summer and then Kyle got put on a job working 60+ hours per week and in October he went to China for 2 months. Kyle started back again to have his appendectomy 1 week before the big test. I think Bowen will pass with flying colors, but I guess I'm biased of his abilities :) {spoken like a true mom} The actual test is in Hoffman, NC. This place has a census of approx. 620 people with 210+ households. WHAT? Maybe it will be a nice break from the chaos of life. I hope so, because ultimately I think we both need it. I am sure to see lots of beautiful hunting dogs, and on this trip, I will actually remember my camera. I already put it in the car just to be super extra sure. I have already gotten some pretty pictures of Bowen doing his thing with the quail in our pasture, but I can't wait to get some more action shots. And maybe he'll meet a new friend or two!!

As for the update on Kyle, he went back to work on Wednesday. He left at about 3:30pm and yesterday stayed until 4:30pm. He's pretty sore and personally I don't think I would be participating in as much activity as he is at this point, but I guess that's because he has the Y chromosome?? Just wondering.

I will bring my computer and if we have internet at this place, I will try to update!

Love, Jen

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Back to life as we know it..

I stayed home Monday to care for my husband. He got discharged from the hospital at about 9:30am and we were OH SO HAPPY! He came home, watched a movie, and both of us took much needed naps. I went to my dentist appointment & then we ate at his parent's house before watching the bachelor. {grr, that's another topic for another post} I'm already looking forward to the next bachelorette!

Yesterday, I went on to work since Kyle insisted that he would be OK and we ended up closing the office early because of the snow. It was a nice surprise to spend the rest of the afternoon with my quickly improving husband. He was getting around well, even going up and down the stairs with ease. So, today, Kyle went back to work. Yes...3 days post-op. He impresses me. He refused to fill the prescription that they gave him for Lortab and has only used occasional Tylenol/IB. Impressive, again. His 3 scars are looking awesome as well!

I just wanted to take the time from our back-to-normal, busy lives to say thank you. Thank you to everyone who took a moment from their own routines over the last several days to think of us, call us, or pray for us. We did feel loved in those hours of chaos within the walls of a hospital...a different hospital than I was in, but nonetheless one that we hoped we wouldn't have to see...ever. BUT, the nurses, doctors, and surgeon were great. They took great care of Kyle..and me. And our family and friends were genuinely concerned. Kyle's mom kept me company & family and friends stopped in to check on us frequently.

So, again, thank you.

On a seperate note, please check out this blog post from the blog "Marriage to Motherhood." It is a different way to look at my previous post, "It's All a Choice." I love the suggestion to change "I have to" to "I get to." She is a great writer, and it's highly suggested reading!! :)

Love, Jen